It really has been a long while since I've updated. I've been trying to get away from all the stress and such, and all this decision-making. Jeopardizing my school year and all. You know how it is.. I'm not in school right now. Kind of stuck in between. And I am quite bored because I rather not go out since I feel I do not deserve to. No one is going out anyway since It has been school nights. It feels so strange to be, somewhat, stuck. I spent today reading a Stephen King book I had been reading a little while before the accident. It really is a great book. "Bag of Bones" Then I curled up and listened to this marvelous CD I made awhile ago. Repeating From Autumn to Ashes various times. I was woken up this morning at 7:30, due to this reaction I get when someone turns off the air conditioning while I am asleep. My body does not seem to conform to it well. And I get this sniffy, hard-to-breathe feeling. I have this annoying sore throat, and I feel tired but the kind of tired you feel that you can't even sleep. I just have these all over rare feelings revolving around me. Scared, nervous, anxious, unworthiness. I just want to be settled. My sister keeps telling me my room is ready... And My dad arrived today to deal with all this and see how things work out. I won't be able to bring much stuff moving over there. But what can you do? Everyone is asking me where am I going to end up, etc. I really have no answer to that. All I can do is hope for the best. OH yeah.. Tomorrow 7:30AM, blood tests because I have another surgery. This will be the sixth one. More fucking anesthesia. Andat 10:30AM I must pick up my nex x-rays. Hope for the best..